Happy Lunar New Year!  Year of the Dragon~  Hopefully this will be a good year for everyone, myself and other dragons in particular

Let’s see, I got my computer early, but the enclosure just came Wednesday.  I’ve been off and on transferring files to my new compy but there’s so much that I haven’t decided what I want on this hard drive.  Then again it really doesn’t matter, it isn’t like I could take a desktop on vacation  At least I have my pictures, save data and other files back~ Not to mention another external!

I broke down and bought the monitor

I’m loving this computer ♥ (I can do alt characters now!) Started a new game for DA2 and it’s sooo nice!  I’ll have to see how high I can set the graphics quality and have it run smoothly.  Wish I could afford Skyrim, but it can wait.  Been obsessing over Beat Hazard anyway.  Oh and Amnesia is so scary!  I made it to the desk with the note and had to take a break.  Haven’t touched it since…  Maybe tonight?  But it reminds me of a horror-based Myst, it seems like the player will have to make a decision at the end but there won’t be a “green book” to pick. Anyway, I have to keep a lamp on or else I can’t see the keyboard.

Ohkay. Classes.  Art, I still feel like I don’t know what I’m doing.  Just turned in our first project yesterday (we haven’t gotten the first assignment back yet) and did a class critique.  Apparently no one had anything they would change about mine, or criticism for that matter. But I probably looked terrified so maybe no one wanted to say that it needs work.  I dunno, just gonna try to make it through the semester. Math isn’t too much better, I understand the concepts, I can do the homework, but for the take home quiz I had to look everything up.  It seems like I can’t remember what I learned, maybe that’s what studying is for…

Now site related stuff.  I was going to make a new layout, but I think I’ll wait.  Seeing that the art class I’m taking it the pre-req for graphic design classes, maybe I’ll learn some stuff I can apply to a layout.  I’m not procrastinating updating the coding I swear!  But one thing math is doing for me is re-kindiling my desire to learn a web programming language.  Still have no idea what I’d use it for, but Javascript and PHP (and MySQL) are sure to come in handy.  Just need to decide which one to learn first and find some good tutorials.  Also gonna try and get that Sozai site up next month, I wanted to get it up before Chinese New Year and have some dragon stuff, but with my laptop dying and just getting my files back that didn’t happen.  Just need to figure out some Valentines Day (and SAD ) stuff.  I have the layout ready to go, but I really want to make it in frames.  It makes more sense to me, but professionally it’s a big no-no.  Not that I’m professional to begin with, but I should try to be.  Maybe that’ll be my pet project, where I can break as many rules as I want!

Long post is long. And my server time is 5 minutes slow >:(

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So I completely forgot to post this yesterday:

Omnomnom

Kakigori on the left, Hawaiian style on the right.  Really craving good shave ice T_T

Anyway, not much has been happening.  RNGed another vulpix because I forgot to nickname the first one and already sent it to Black >.<  But I traded it for a Zekrom (it passed a legit checker online so hopefully it’s all good), one less thing to trade for.  Still need to evolve the new one and send it, but it’s nicknamed!  Also RNGed a shiny Sandshrew, next up, Ponyta.

Been listening to twewy soundtrack, I dunno why, just in that sort of mood I suppose.  Makes me want to play the game again but I think you can only have one save file…  Also want to replay Mystery Dungeon Explorers of Sky, but I don’t wanna delete my Eevee!  *sigh*  Is it worth buying Darkness or Time?  Probably not XD

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First things first though, my art project for the week:

Lookie what I drew! *bricked*

So I can’t use colored pencil well.  Oh well, I tried.  That and a chibi style, which didn’t go as bad as I thought.  Moving on…

Yesterday~  I finaly RNGed a shiny on HeartGold!  <3  It was a vulpix that I need to train and evolve before sending it over to Black due to a lack of Fire Stones.  I feel proud of myself! *bricked again*  Gonna try for… not sure, maybe sandshrew next?

Well this is probably the shortest entry (word wise) I’ve ever done.  Oh, but I got my glasses back~  Ok, now I’m done.

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I think so!  Well, more like mood deterioration.  I wake up, ready to cope and by the end of the day I want to yell till I’m blue in the face.  So I end up stewing in my room at night.  Thankfuly, my dad took grandma and cousin up to visit people in Michigan today through part of tomorrow.  And they leave Friday morning so less than a day left to deal with them.  *sigh*  Hopefully I won’t do something stupid or rash tomorrow.  Just a little longer…

I finally beat Black!  It was soooo goooood~  Makes me wanna hug N.  But I totally didn’t expect to fight Ghetsis after N!  And for their pokemon to be at such high levels!  A walkthrough said lvl 45 minimum, for the elite four and mine were 46-48.  Used almost all my max revives, too bad you can’t buy them.  But I really am surprised that I didn’t lose.  Oh, another thing that surprised me (more like downright shocked), that Rashiram/Zerkrom and Victini aren’t “auto-catches” if you will.  One being an intrical part of the story and the other being an event.  Don’t get me wrong, I’m not complaining.  It’s just that for both Rashiram and Victini I threw 1 ultra ball and it caught.  I figured it was part of the story/event but I’m reading that you should load up on ultra and dusk balls before the elite four.  For Cobalion and the grass one (forgot its name…) I had to keep chucking ultra balls.  Weird.  Maybe fire types like me…?

In the same vein, transferred a couple dittos over and got my Rotom (Eeks?  What kind of nickname is that?) and bred a female dratini with extreme speed.  Yay?  Got a lot of breeding to do.  And transferring so I can breed.

And I’m realizing just how bad I am at graphic design.  I knew I wasn’t good, but now I know I need to read some books or something.  In addition to tutorials, but knowledge before application.  It depresses me, but at least I have a better idea of how far I need to go.

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A people sort of storm, not the natural disaster sort.  Well for my emotions it may as well be a natural disaster.  Yes, I’m talking about my cousin and grandma.  They’re due to arrive in less than a week now.  I have a horrible feeling that things won’t go well.  I’ll do or say something rash, I won’t call it stupid yet, and there’ll be another fiasco like last time.  If that does happen, I hope my dad will actually stand by me instead of cater to my bratty cousin.  Time will tell.  In a more practical sense, I’m cleaning the bathroom.

May as well get the negative stuff out of the way now.  Some jack ass on VDex is trying to, in essence, steal from Shiro.  I won’t quote the article or go into detail, but that’s unjustifiable and inexcusable regardless of their economic standing.  It really pisses me off how low some people are.  I feel horrible for Shiro that she has to deal with all this crap on top of her own life.

Back to more mundane topics.  Started playing Aika with a few people from Gaia.  I’m only lvl 10 but I can’t tell what the fuss is about.  So far, it’s just grind, complete quests, and purchase skills.  Not much in the way of character building or community so far.  I really want to play Rift though!  Unfortunately, it’s $50 and I’m broke T_T  Oh well, it’ll have to wait.

Completed my first trade in Pokemon Black!  Got a couple White exclusives (Solosis and Petilil).  Right now I’m grinding to make sure I can beat the last gym and am planning to get a legendary or 2 before that.

Oh!  That reminds me, I’m switching over the fanlistings to a collective site.  Link is on the right.  And along with that, I kinda started archiving my games and pokemon…  Yes, I have no life.  I’ll put up FCs sooner or later for trading purposes.  I think that’s all the site news.  Probably, I don’t do much with my hosting x.x

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More like a random series of thoughts that may or may not have anything to do with each other.   I.e. rambling.

Speaking of ie, some add on was causing it to crash every time I tried to open any site.  Still not sure exactly which add on it was, probably a Norton one, but it’s working again.  Yes, ie isn’t the best of browsers, but I’m used to it and am not a fan of how Chrome displays favorites, because I bookmark everything, and Firefox is a bit “heavy” if you know what I mean.

I just pre-ordered Pokemon Black.  Honestly I was waiting for the price to drop after it’s release, but Amazon has an offer I couldn’t pass up.  A $10 Amazon credit, so, in a way, the game’s $25.  There’s always something I could put a $10 credit towards, plus free shipping.

It’s so depressing that Borders is closing!  I’m not sure why, but I’ve always preferred Borders to Barnes & Noble.  A small part is that for B&N you have to pay to be a part of their rewards program, but even before that I remember liking Borders more.  *sigh*  I did take advantage of their store closing sale though.  Bought 3 more manga (which brings the total of unread volumes to 10), a “teach yourself French” book, and 2 cook books.  Oh, and a bar of Lindt chocolate :3  I know it’s stupid and irrational, but I feel bad taking advantage of the sale.  I’m profiting from someone’s misfortune.  They’re trying to save money by having this sale, I know, but I can’t shake the feeling.

Been playing Dragon Age Origins practically non-stop these past 3 weeks, I think I built my character wrong and/or have horrible tactics settings because I find that I have to load a lot due to dying.  Currently around Landsmeet and romancing Alistair, not really sure how that’s gonna go…  Horribly enough, I don’t want to put him on the throne.  Maybe I won’t, seeing that I’m having a difficult time with my character anyway.  Hopefully my next play through will be better.

Just noticed that I need to adjust the time zone…  Anyway, Happy Early Girl’s Day!

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Meh…  I’m not really depressed, just lacking energy and motivation to do anything.  I blame Adderall (sp?).  First half of the day was great, good mood and stayed focused, though not on important things.  Second dose, and I’m not doing much, low energy level.  It probably doesn’t help that I got 5 hours of sleep last night.  I keep going to sleep late (5-6) and waking up at around 10-11:30.  Don’t know what’s wrong with me.  Ah, I haven’t mentioned the appointment with the psychiatrist.  He thinks that I’m suffering from more social anxiety, I was feeling quite depressed prior to that and surprisingly apathetic.  He was going off a psych test I took years ago and my anxiety from years ago.  So that’s where Adderall came in, helps focus as well as subdues anxiety.  I’ll have to continue taking it to see if all this is normal.

While I am quite lonely right now, I just don’t want to talk to anyone for fear of bringing them down.  Or not providing good conversation.  I’ve been lurking around Gaia Online, playing zOMG! and Booty Grab.  Not much else to do, none of my friends are really up for conversation right now.  What a waste of time, wandering aimlessly through the forums. 

I finished Kurayami.  With the help of walkthroughs.  I’ll dig up the links and post them later, both are in Japanese.  Links:

http://www.otentosama.com/A_Kurayaminohate/top.html

http://schloss-gennou.sakura.ne.jp/kurayamikouryaku.html

I really enjoyed the game more than I thought I would.  I just didn’t care for Sakuraba, everyone else was enjoyable, even the killer!  It amused me a lot!  Haven’t played any other game (sans Gaia) since beating it.

Well, Amanda’s home!  We’ve been bored a lot though, not much to do around here with little money.  There are things I should be doing, but I really don’t feel like it.  Oh!  I finally saw Avatar!  Loved it!  My sister went out and bought it after we saw it.  I’m thinking of asking for it for my b-day.  Really nothing eventful has happened.

There are a bunch of things I wanted to talk about in this entry but the words aren’t coming.  Main highlights: Family trip mid-June, my dad set a planter on fire, and I’m not working this entire month.  I’ll go into detail later, just not feeling it right now…

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I’ve put off posting for as long as I could because I was feeling extremely depressed and a touch suicidal so I didn’t want to bring anyone down or be all emo.  I’ll get to that later.

But I beat Explorers of Sky!  Ending=love!  I’m a sucker for sad yet happy endings.  I kinda wish they would have left it but there would be no reason to keep the game if there was no post game stuff.  I got bored with going to random dungeons and I don’t have the patienceright now to get all those secret missions out of the way.  So!  I finally played Kurayami!  Love it!  I really don’t understand Japanese that well so I just listen to the voices (boy that sounded creepy!) and look at the pictures to figure everything out.  Doesn’t work too well.  I had 2 bad ends, 2 normal ends, and, thanks to walkthroughs, 2 true ends.  I’m pretty sure I have all of Sakuraba’s CGs and I’m missing 3 of Aoi’s, 1 is his death CG.  And everyone else doesn’t have too many.  So I think I’ll go for Honami (I think that’s his name) because he cracks me up and return to Aoi to get the 2 CGs I’m missing.  But, unfortunately, there is only 1 killer.  I’ll do his ending last.  But I’m curious to see what happens if you let everyone die, if you don’t pick the killer, or even if that’s a possibility.

Back to my issues.  I’ve been feeling really crappy lately.  Not gonna go into detail, but I started to feel better Mother’s Day and yesterday I was extremely irritable and locked myself in my room.  I was hoping that I suffer from depression and am not bi-polar as the mood stabilizer that works for me is very expensive.  So I’ve been off of it for a few months to test that theory out.  Obviously, it’s more than just depression.  I’ll be seeing another doctor in about a week so hopefully it can get sorted out.

On a high note, Amanda is coming back on Thursday!  I can’t wait to see her and have her cat stop bothering me.  But seriously, I miss my sister.  That was emphisized Saturday night/Sunday morning when I went to pick up a Mother’s Day card.  As I was looking for my car, I ran into Amanda (a friend, not my sister) and her mom and sister.  We talked for about an hour, I was standing outside their car for some of it, and then my mom called so I had to go back in to find an excuse for me to be at Meijer at 12:00 AM.  So the 4 of us went back in and it reminded me of when my sister and I would make “midnight runs to Martins” if we were craving something.  Meijer if it was after midnight.

Now why was I out that late?  Because a co-worker asked me if I wanted to meet at a bar an hour after we got off work.  Ok, I was trying to avoid agreeing not only because I’m not interested, but because of the location.  A bar?  Really?  There’s nothing wrong with going to a bar, but I hardly know this guy and don’t really trust him with my well being.  So by the time I got home, I had to leave.  I changed and found a smaller bag and was running at least 10-15 minutes late.  Got there and didn’t know where to park so I just found easy parking and walked.  Poked my head in, smelled smoke and didn’t see any black guys so I turned around and left.  I felt quite relived but now I have to deal with him thinking I stood him up and explain that I got there 30 minutes late.  Yes I need a life, but I really don’t want to get one that has him in it.

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I wanted to use “Epic Fail” as the title rather than “Fail” but its been more small fails rather than 1 huge somewhat funny fail.  First of all, Meijer brand Blue Moon ice cream FAILS!  I bought it because it was cheaper than Bonnie Doons and the only other Blue Moon ice cream.  It tastes like citrus…  And vanilla…  So it’s not as bad as yuzu, but it’s really not what I wanted.  So back to the store!

Second, my hours have been cut at work, again.  A new manager is beening trained so he’s getting my few weekday hours for at least the next month.  And because it’s getting nice out, people won’t want to spend their time inside at an arcade so Saturdays have been pretty dead.  And I don’t work Sundays.  Time for another job!

And the third fail is me.  I’ll just lump it all in one so I don’t have to keep counting.  I have no multitasking skills at all, so when I’m going back and forth between a game and the internet, I either fail at the game or don’t get the info I want off the internet when I need it.  That’s a nice segway into games!  I still haven’t played Kurayami or Age of Empires, but I just bought Pokemon Mystery Dungeon Explorers of Sky.  Which I stayed up untill 4 playing.  I’ve also been playing Heart Gold, Papaya, We Rule, and Haypi Kingdom.  The last three are for iPhone/iTouch.  Plus I signed up for Super Poke Pets and FarmVille on Facebook and have been clicking like mad on Global PokedeX Plus.  Not to mention I bought a 2000 point Wii card and downloaded a Zelda game.  Oh!  For those of you who game on a console and don’t look at ads, Target has their cards on sale for $17!  Apparently, we’re strange here and the ads come on Sunday and start on Sunday so the sale may be over for the rest of the country.  Don’t know though.

And I still haven’t cleaned my room or even tried thinking of a new layout yet.  Bleh.  So much to do, and so little motivation.

Stupid random side-note time!  Yes I should have incorporated this into the previous paragraphs, but I’m not in the mood to edit right now.  My nail is breaking.  I know you don’t care, but it’s making it difficult for me to type and I can’t just rip it off because it’s below the skin and it may bleed if I do that.  I know, tmi.  And in Explorers of Sky I’m apparently jolly because I got Eevee.  I see myself as more lonely, quiet, or quirky, but I’m glad I didn’t get those because I don’t care for the Pokemon associated with them.  Actually, Piplup is cute so I wouldn’t have minded it.  Ok, I’m done now.

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So I moved…  Again.  Over to VPS this time, so now I can mess with more stuff!  lol  Initially I was going to let melancholy-dream.net expire so I wouldn’t have to mess with transfering it over.  But, as you can tell, I couldn’t let it go and transferred it after purchasing 6 new domain names.  Why would I purchase 6 domain names?  I really don’t know.  It kinda snowballed I guess, from trying to find a domain name I liked as a replacement, to thinking up ones that I liked in general, to trying to get free privacy protection.  Unfortunately I mis-spelled one so I’m down to 5 new ones.  But fortunately I had a coupon so I didn’t waste as much!  Anyway, I have no idea what I’m going to do with 5 of my domains that I plan on keeping.  I’m going to let fanciful-cafe.net expire in October as it’s too narrow of a domain name for me.  I’m pretty sure I’ll keep star-storm.me and we’ll have to see about the 5 new ones though I have no plans to give them up.

So where have I been the past few months?  In the state of unmotivation.  Somewhat depressed, kinda bored, and very stagnant.  I realized I missed blogging a couple weeks ago and decided to get the ball rolling again.  And its taken me a week to get everything set up, while using the same layout!  Sad isn’t it.  I really wanted to make a new layout before I re-opened but I didn’t get to it and had no inspiration anyway.  So when I get an idea I’ll work on it, hopefully it won’t be too long from now.

Back to what I normally blog about: my life.  Last week my parents went on vacation and I got the house to myself!  For all of 3 and a half days…  And I had to work on 3 of those days so it wasn’t as enjoyable as it could have been.  But I took what I could get.  I had about 4 things I wanted to do and 0 were accomplished.  But I did clean my toilet, that takes all of 2 minutes though.  I really wanted to start playing Kurayami no Hate de Kimi o Matsu, but I need a large chunk of time to concentrate and look up all the Japanese I don’t know.  So that’ll have to wait till Tuesday, if I can get up before noon.

And speaking of games, I bought Age of Empires Collector’s Edition because I loved the first Age of Empires game!  No, I couldn’t win sans cheats and yes, I kinda like tedious building and upgrading.  I have yet to actually play it, though it is installed.  And I ordered Heart Gold on Amazon because I love fell in love with the Pokemon games in elementary school and it was about $10 cheaper there plus free shipping.  I’m feeling very nostalgic now I guess.  Though I lack the desire to play Might & Magic VI or VII, 2 games I enjoyed when I was a kid.  Lemmings was also fun, I should look for that game for XP or Vista.

Ok, I know I had more I wanted to share but I can’t remember any of it.  Besides it’s almost 4 AM and I should get to sleep.  Sorry if this didn’t make much sense, I’m quite tired.

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